i itch so bad

Ah, I just have to say that I'm frustrated. Every time I try and start a conversation I just get shut down by pessimism, and it's been this way for years so I don't know why I expect it to be different every time. Also the mosquito that bit me all weekend and I finally killed yesterday is driving me crazy because of all the itching. It's just wrong to want to hit yourself so that the itch will go away. And have you seen my legs? Covered in bug bites. Covered I tell you.! I don't want to hit myself, I want to drive knives into the wounds to cut the itchy poison out..... why/??????