Ah, what am I going to give up for Lent? Ash Wednesday is tomorrow and I still haven't decided. Got a list:
- Add 30min exercise/day
- Add 30 min meditation
- Only 1 starch per meal
- 1/2 scoop of sugar in my tea
- No coffee
- No bread
- Only thrift shopping
- Only mindful eating
I don't think I drink coffee enough to give it up. I don't think I eat bread enough either (though I have since I bought a loaf of oatmeal bread - wow that stuff is good with cheddar cheese). The exercise challenge could work, but I've done that before. I've also given up bread before. I like Lent because I look at it as a mind over body / willpower thing. It proves to myself that I have determination. That's one of the reasons why I want to do a PhD - to prove to myself that I can. I've probably focused on PhD as a worthy challenge because I have so many friends who are Drs or in the process of becoming doctors. And also one of my cousins. If I can do it, why not? I don't think for one minute that I can't. I realize this is why they created dinosaurs in Jurassic Park. Yeah, if I was one of those scientists, I'd probably have happily gone up in there creating dangerous animals that later ate me instead of listening to Jeff Goldblum and his chaos theory.
|i found him so freaking attractive|
Just because you can, is not a reason to do something. I'd also do it for the money. Wow. Yes, I hear myself. And for the fact that I'd be able to do interesting research. I like my work environment but all this giant organizational mess with the rules rules rules isn't what I want to learn about in particular. I do believe that life is about learning, and if I got the PhD, I could learn more than bureaucracy... and yes most certainly that too. By the way, bureaucracy is not easy to spell - my first try was bureocracy.
S is now texting me again. Just randomly today. Why do I text back? I know I'm not attracted to him. Maybe he's at the friend level? No clue. As long as I stay at it, I'm fine. And to stay there, all I have to do is thinking about the New Year's Day barfing episode. Hours I tell you, hours long.