i don't want to read a certain book

Another snow day spent half teleworking. If it wasn't busy season... Got about 6-8inches. 3 out of 4 of the paintings from yesterday turned out well. For the tall mountains with the waterfalls I couldn't convey the depth. They don't look like mountains and a waterfall with clouds at the top and the ocean below, not even an artist rendition of it. I'll have to paint it again later. Maybe I'll try another flower thing, or the JMW turner thing - I'm going to run out of blue soon. I have a dark blue and a pale blue and then of course black and white to vary the colors. It's not a huge deal since the paints cost like $1.99 in the first place. I'm scared to read the wild west book I loaned from the library. I was expecting a Cormac McCarthy - esque western, but this novel is brutal. Yeah, you can argue that Cormac McCarthy's "No Country for Old Men" was brutal, but it didn't draw out the characters - you didn't get attached to them first before they were tortured and cut down. I mean, I loved McCarthy's "Cities of the Plain" - I freaking cried at the end of it. But if I wind up crying at the end of the western I might maybe read it'll just be because I was so scarred. It kind of reminds me of when I saw Ang Lee's Lust Caution back in 2007 - I cared about the main character and I was scarred by all she went through. No movie in all of my adult movie-watching experience has traumatized me like Lust Caution; this was before I probably even knew internet porn existed. I was really young, people! Also, I can't bear to watch war movies where I don't even know the characters who are dying. Don't make me get all invested in a girl's story and then do horrible things to her.

and goodnight...

Started watching "Let's Eat" again after I heard it does turn into a little bit of a romance. I need just a little. Also, how do I now know 3 members of B2ST purely from dramas? I don't think they act often, but when they do they get the lead roles.