holding feeling running shopping interesting drinking

I ran for the first time since 2/2/14. Why? Well it was warm outside and I felt like it. Why didn't I run for almost 2 months? Well it was cold outside so I didn't feel like it - I hate when snot dribbles down my face and I have to run holding tissues.

Feeling kind of sick because I had pizza, wine, ice cream, and tea for dinner. I need to get control of my diet. Hopefully I can run twice a week now and I'll lose some weight. I was definitely in a plateau before. Hopefully my knees will be okay. I'll try running at work on Tuesday.

It's supposed to rain all day tomorrow but I have a grocery shopping mission. It was supposed to rain all day today and that didn't happen. Wow I am not interesting at all when I've been drinking.

3/27 won't come round again til next year

3/27. You know 27 is my favorite number, right? 3^3=27. It seems like something miraculous should happen today. I opened a wine bottle for the first time in my life. I don't know how I got this far without doing that - there was always somebody else around who wanted to open it. It wasn't as hard as everyone made it look. Simple machines - I love them. Now if I get a bottle opener, my alcohol collection will be complete.

Trying to find a car seat for an 8 month old, just to borrow for a few days, but I might have to buy it. I only have one friend with a kid around here, and she just had the baby Tuesday.

Went by the Amish market and it was closed! Say it ain't so. I love that place. I was looking forward to it the whole drive home. It's where I get my fruit. Maybe tomorrow.

SC emailed me about meeting up. I don't really see the point. I mean, if I at least felt some chemistry toward him then I wouldn't mind not being interested in the words that come out of his mouth. But I don't. And wow that was mean. But I'd rather be alone than forcing myself to be with someone. But maybe he just wants to be friends. I don't know. I mostly think he's just bored and can't meet enough girls, so he's falling back on me. Well there's a whole state full of them, dude.

My mom says she'll help me build some furniture. I'm up for that. I can't bring myself to buy the weak looking bookshelves in the crappy furniture places. And yet the quality stuff costs more than it's worth. First world problems.

dinner, high hopes

When I was driving home, I thought of a dinner meal. Is this really a meal? It tasted fine to me:
whole wheat rotini pasta
beef bouillon cube
bell pepper
omega3 oil
marinara sauce
curry powder
red pepper flakes
Parmesan cheese
And I even had some leftover for work tomorrow. So far my meal tomorrow is leftover today's dinner, apple slices, and a belvita bar. I have high hopes that I will be able to leave at 4:30 tomorrow for the first time in 2 weeks. High hopes. Mayhap I'll even get to do my hair.

i cooked with the orange one

I told my family that I started painting with the paints and paper I got from Walmart and they made a surprisingly big deal about it. I now own legitimate paints, leftover from my artist sister who has decided she doesn't want to paint anymore. She moved on to glassblowing a while back. At any rate, I started painting just to get out some aggression, so I'm not trying to change my purpose. I just want fill my apartment with pretty pictures. It's going to take a while. I guess if I fill it and then my mom takes some, it'll be fine. I want to paint another imitation Van Gogh. I don't think my mom's a huge Van Gogh fan, but my middle sister seems to really like it for some reason, so she'll take it!

barefoot

Those paintings I painted the other day, I really like them. They're so cheerful, I want to cover my whole apartment in cheerful paintings. Wow this is going to take me a long time :-). It takes a while since I have to draw everything first to get an idea of the layout, but the results are worth it. Maybe I can get this place looking halfway decent and homey before my cousin YN comes in 2 weeks. Fingers crossed.

I stayed at work until just before 7 yesterday and today. Still can't finish everything! I have this weird drive that makes me try to do everything. Rewarding myself with Barefoot Refresh Perfectly Pink wine. Yum.

mmmm. try them all!

Found the only poem I ever wrote that I was ever emotionally invested in. Well, that I remember being invested in. Need to revise the title though.

i don't want to read a certain book

Another snow day spent half teleworking. If it wasn't busy season... Got about 6-8inches. 3 out of 4 of the paintings from yesterday turned out well. For the tall mountains with the waterfalls I couldn't convey the depth. They don't look like mountains and a waterfall with clouds at the top and the ocean below, not even an artist rendition of it. I'll have to paint it again later. Maybe I'll try another flower thing, or the JMW turner thing - I'm going to run out of blue soon. I have a dark blue and a pale blue and then of course black and white to vary the colors. It's not a huge deal since the paints cost like $1.99 in the first place. I'm scared to read the wild west book I loaned from the library. I was expecting a Cormac McCarthy - esque western, but this novel is brutal. Yeah, you can argue that Cormac McCarthy's "No Country for Old Men" was brutal, but it didn't draw out the characters - you didn't get attached to them first before they were tortured and cut down. I mean, I loved McCarthy's "Cities of the Plain" - I freaking cried at the end of it. But if I wind up crying at the end of the western I might maybe read it'll just be because I was so scarred. It kind of reminds me of when I saw Ang Lee's Lust Caution back in 2007 - I cared about the main character and I was scarred by all she went through. No movie in all of my adult movie-watching experience has traumatized me like Lust Caution; this was before I probably even knew internet porn existed. I was really young, people! Also, I can't bear to watch war movies where I don't even know the characters who are dying. Don't make me get all invested in a girl's story and then do horrible things to her.

and goodnight...

Started watching "Let's Eat" again after I heard it does turn into a little bit of a romance. I need just a little. Also, how do I now know 3 members of B2ST purely from dramas? I don't think they act often, but when they do they get the lead roles.