On the RA front, I don't even know what I'm doing. Half of me is all - just do it. The other half of me is all - but it's so much work to get ready. So I'm basically lazy.
I did some thinking about why I didn't want to, and most of it came down to me being unhappy in the end. But I never used to think like that. I used to just think about now, and even with Bud post break-up I would ask myself if I regretted it and I never did. Even when I was depressed I still didn't. So why am I thinking about being sad and regretting this time around? It's just that there's so much doom on this b/c it can never be a relationship and I always thought what I wanted is a relationship. But I couldn't stand it when SC texted me all the time, so if that's a relationship then I don't want one. I see why people say women need slutty college years, but only if you go to a big enough college where you don't have to see the same guy you slept with when you were tipsy for the next 3 and a half years. My college was not big enough.
|unless it was Jung Kyung Ho|