take you far away

Years ago, MW gave me a Marc Jacobs dress she found on clearance at Loehmanns. It looked horrible on me. So I just kind of kept it. Then in January, I got the idea to cut off the top and keep the full skirt for summer. I wore it to work today, but it poured so I had to wear rain boots. I swear I looked like little house on the prairie. Worth it. It's a pale cotton and somehow I managed to attract lipstick and chocolate stains throughout the course of the day. Will those come out with my home dry cleaning kit?

Came home, took out my contacts, changed into my nightclothes, and slept. Two hours later, I'm wearing my glasses, and so glad I had that nap. I didn't even try to meet with the running group today - too tired. The only downside is that when I woke up, I felt slightly sick and weak from lack of food, prompting me to make pasta with cheese and eat Haagen-Dazs afterwards. There goes my plan to sleep my way through losing that last 10 pounds.

This song is stuck in my head!

I discovered the Snip tool on my computer, and now I am unstoppable. How did I never noticed it before?

New drama crack is called Nine:Nine Time Travels. I now love Lee Jin-wook (until the show is over).
New country song find is "Cruise" by Florida Georgia Line
New pop radio find is "Troublemaker" by Olly Murs

wow i drove this weekend

I drove home Friday night after work. It takes 2 hours to get there - up 95 for the first hour and then back country for the second hour. I can't express how much I love my parents. And my siblings. And the family that lives near my parents. And Darcy, or dog. That's why I didn't mind when I moved back home for a couple years to do grad school. My US society tells me I should mind, but if anything I was more ashamed that I didn't mind when I was living at home. Plus home is rural, and I love the woods. I love to be outside in spring, summer, and fall. I'll even take winter in a pinch.

I treated BG to lunch, and we caught up during and afterwards. There is nothing like girlfriends. Okay, except sisters. She still works with Bud. Get this - I was ravenous when we sat down at the table to order. And then she said that the regular hook ups were happening at work and I lost my appetite. A sudden sick jab to my stomach and it was just gone. It must have showed on my face because she skimmed right along to another topic.

Why? It's been almost a year. I'm going to be messed up during/after the grad party in a month. I prefer to trick my mind into thinking all my exes are living happily ever after somewhere and I will never see or hear of them again. Or crappily ever after. I don't care as long as I never see or hear of them again. But life's not like that.

My youngest sissy came back from Japan! She is so good for souvenirs. She brought back multiple presents for everyone. I totally was not expecting that. I'm now the proud owner of GD socks. I squealed. So sad to leave her and drive back down to my apartment.

The GD's are in the middle. Fantastic Baby.

I read Dubus's The Garden of Last Days and didn't realize it was about the last days before 9/11 until I had 20 pages left in the 535 page book. That is a true testament to my powers to not observe something because 9/11 is clearly pasted all over the back cover. When I realized it was about 9/11, I was disappointed because the topic has been done to death, but I did learn, and I liked the writing style.

mutated clovers

I haven't been able to make the running group time, so I've run by myself this week and rediscovered that I love being outside. It gave me time to explore on Monday (since I didn't have to keep to a 9:30 pace) and I found a couple trails. If no one comes along, I can imagine I'm in the woods at Hibernia. I found the most mutated clovers. I was looking for a 4 leaf clover by the vegetable garden. At first I got really excited and thought I'd found a 6 leaf clover, but then I realized the way about 20 different plants were growing was with almost split leaves. Mutation! I ran by again today and they'd mowed the grass near the vegetable patch. No more mutated clovers and I had no witnesses.

Came home, showered, and actually kicked myself out of the apartment to go buy food. Yum to bananas, grapes, yogurt, my current favorite cereal, honey wheat pretzels, mango ice cream... I knew I shouldn't go shopping while hungry, but I stopped to fix something for dinner, I'd never leave.

A co-worker made a spreadsheet to plan her wedding (I found out at the work bridal shower). Not that I have any real prospects, but if I ever have to plan a real wedding, I want that spreadsheet. That said, I'll just buy a really good cake, a dress, and elope. At the bridal shower, I heard I have to deliver a 90 day introduction to my company. Um. When is 90 days?

I talked to an astronaut outside the perpetual meeting room. Felt special. I so wanted to make friends with the event planner outside the perpetual meeting room. Couldn't swing it, but I did break to mail a letter to one of my cousins in the post office. The post office is right by the gift shop, where I stopped to buy this organic sea salt chocolate that is worth the $3.79. I called my parents to ask if they wanted a key chain or something and my dad accused me of going shopping while he and my mom were hard at work. Salty!

I started listening to I Heart Radio when I wake up, but it's repetitive. I'm reading a book by Andre Dubus III called The Garden of Last Days. Picked it up from the Goodwill. It's a literary novel, but it's about strippers. I keep thinking about strippers.

I don't want to go to BG's graduation party if Bud is going to be there. I should be over this by now.

fun run 75

In a reversal, I went to work in workout clothes and came home business casual. That's because I did the 2 mile fun run today and it was ... well, fun. Great to get out and moving during the middle of the day, see all the people, wear the race bib#. It left me wanting to run at the normal time at the end of the day - I would have, but I didn't have any non-sweaty running clothes. I just like to be outside.

Today I feel lonely because I have no friends who live in my new town. It's one day after my half birthday. I should buy some cake. It's not too late, but let's be real, I'm not leaving my apartment until tomorrow morning.

I ate 6 cuties after I got home from work. I'm waiting for it to backfire on me. Whenever I eat a lot of one food, it always backfires (ex. walnuts, grapes, spinach). Been eating super healthy lately, only because I don't have enough money to buy junk food. Today I had 1% milk, Honey Bunches of Oats, Belvita, orange juice, 1/2 banana, 1/4 orange, 1/2 a turkey and cheese sandwich, 2tbsp peanut butter, 1 apple, 2 servings of pasta, 10 glasses of water, and those 6 cuties. Not to turn this into a food blog, but wow I need to eat more veggies.

i understand you, so can you understand me?

Bills bills bills. I think there's a song in there somewhere. Speaking of songs, my random list of songs to download:

How to Love - Lil Wayne

Imagine Dragons

I Want You - Luke James

Blame It on the Boogie - MJ

Only Just a Dream - Nelly

As Long as you Love Me - JBiebs

I Hope You Dance -Lee Ann Womack

In Too Deep - Phil Collins

And yes, I call him JBiebs in my head. Too much hanging around MM a year or so ago. He was entertaining - his douchey-ness was somehow adorable.

Today is my half birthday. This cactus is the physical manifestation of a personality.

Yesterday was a bad day for being happy (Boston marathon, forgot my sports bra so couldn't run, came home and cried through the news), but today was much better. I'm realizing more and more that I need to expand my social circle. There's only so much a phone conversation can do for you. Live people are necessary. A few more weeks of this and I'll be able to write one of those post-apocalyptic characters who's kind of manic depressed and talks to themselves all the time. Oh empathy. The older I grow, the more experiences I'm exposed to and the more people I can sympathize with who I couldn't understand before. I don't understand how not to like people. I'm pretty sure that's going to bite me in the ass. Again.

Okay, definitely developing a crush because CH is the only guy I see! I need to just hear him talk about a girlfriend or something so bad that it actually disgusts me. Then it'll go away. I'm excellent at shutting down stuff that hasn't happened yet. Stuff that has happened, not so good (see all the Bud posts).

Fun run tomorrow.